What should i do. Or what can i even do.

I want to talk to someone yet i don't wish to talk to anyone.
I want to speak it out yet i don't think i can ever speak it out.

I just lost a kin of mine. I'm having all the pressure suddenly around me.
Why don't you just take me away.

I have never in my life, felt so pathetically helpless. Never.

♥

Now, GOD pls Send Me to the other world free of sufferings.
Devastated. I can't believe it

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Life's really short...so learn to really cherish every single one around you...
Action speaks louder than words..so action and not just words.

Just chatted with you online..but it wasnt really a pleasant one.
Know that you are tired..perhaps i should have been more understanding, but perhaps at this time, i couldn't control myself.

Anyway..i just wanna post to say that i really miss you alot. Your Hp aint with you and u just went offline without me able to say much. I wish i could call you.
I wish you were here because a hug and kiss from you right now would make me feel so much much better..

Thinking of you..

♥

After returning to my hp after the blading & cycling session with nei,steph etc..
Seeing many missed calls from my bro's in aussie...i knew something was amiss...

God has taken ure soul away from us.....to a more beautiful world that will spare u from any sufferings ever again.

Upon the news, i was stunned. I felt nothing. Mind was empty.
Till minutes later, trying to hold myself back. I couldn't. I am really going to miss you deeply.
Love you grannie..

♥

Finally its raining in sg after several days of scorching sun...

I hate this feeling....sometimes i really wish u can be the cells inside me, knowing what i am thinking at all times.

What i can say is all these days stoning at home has really been bad just like the abominable weather. As before...i'm just looking forwad to the date when i can be "Reunited" with you.

The feelings for you..is just like.
I love my holidays, but now i rather waste the holidays and speed forward time to able to meet up with you..


Trust.

♥

once a sinner, no matter wtf u do in the future. it doesnt help. never will it.

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Gooddddddd MorNing Sunshine!~

Yes, I am up. As early as 8am in da morning. Feeling really good.. although im down with flu,sorethroat and slight fever. Its good to wake up early in the morning without a doubt.
At least i got to eat an extra meal for the day.haha.

Baby! im up! ha so don't say i always laze till when the sunshine is on my bum. =P
Even though i ain't working/schooling, being up early simply means slacking myself throughout the day rather then sleeping myself through, haha i dun care.


Anyway...tonite's the big match and i cant wait!
Red Devils all e way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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After victory against SMU
The 2nd most complete team photo(2left and 4joined after)
Good Old Timesss..

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RED DEVILS . the best team in da world now~


=)


Really glad for them although there were a few nervy moments which my mum and i was like screaming all over.





Anyway...this is the 2nd day of the life without baby .


Wanted to blog yest nite but couldnt..didnt wanna look at any blogs..tat would remind me of her.sigh...really missed her..





Now im looking forward to the date u'll tell me tat im able to go over and meet u..coz now...there isnt any dates for me to look forward too..yes...steph..at least u got 29th of may to look forward to...sigh.





Went Blading wif baby and sister on thurs nite! my sister was like pestering us to accompany her to ecp to blade...so being a nice bro , complied to her request.


Reached there around 10.30pm? and blade till around 12am~ haha lotsa fun! baby's virgin attempt wif roller blades although she keep saying that she knows how to ice skate.


Fair enough, she was pretty good for a first time blader! hahah holding my hands all e way while blading..while my little sister was complaining abt our slow pace. Lotsa fun! and cant wait to go blading again !





On fri, being the planner fer that nite..duty allocated by mr cute_braces. Organised a dinner at Fish&Co(parkway) and...yeah...the peeps were late!!! except fer steph. haha. Some disappointing facts was that the aircon was down that day! and the staff's services were pretty bad(but yeah..working in a hot and stuffy place will certainly affect their mood so...)


After dinner, we head down to kallang leisure park for bowling! haa. as it was pretty packed, we had to wait and had some fun at the arcade centre! haha. yes! and yes! broke my "personal" record at the bball gamee..going to the 4th stage(normally 2nd stage = gg).





That night was a memorable night for me...for after bowling and returning back home...


Packed some stuff at my place...and we went to her place. That was around 3.30am.


And for the first time.. baby DROVE me back to her place!! Although not bery stable, but still really proud of her! hahah driving all e way from east to the north east! hahahha





Sigh...just cant stop thinking abt her....


logging off..nitex..

Baby at the wheels! *claps*

Cam whoring b4 wrapping up for home after blading

Hand-in-hand, we'll walk down this road together. Loves.

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For the last moments...for the first time. i wish that time would stop right now and tick no further.
While waiting for her to take her shower and to send her back home, i feel lost. totally.

I want to stay strong. i don't want her to be worried. but I'm weak.
I dunno wad i will got to do to hold myself back tml at the airport when i will be all alone outside the departure gate , looking at her back or even looking at her waving at me, saying goodbye.

How hard will that goodbye be. I dunno . and i dun wish to know and experience it.
But as i type, the clock continues to tick wif no mercy.

She's out..and i gotta go...

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Ringgggggggggggggggggringgggggggg...... Me:"Hellooooo.......hhhhhooowwww...????" Baby: " YeS! i Passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Baby: " Somemore its the same stupid previous tester, and he say that how come ure driving so gd, that time nv pass?" Lol, contradiction when it was him whu failed baby becoz of some stupid crossing of white line thingy by the BACK wheel of the vehicle. wellwell..I dunno why i feel exhilarated for baby when i heard that. hehe. really happy for u! Loves. signing off...gonna go pick her up... 2more days...sigh.

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As we are not able to spend our anniversary together this mth. Got her a surprise on monday.
Always wanted to get to the top of the SG flyer. Booked a ticket online on sunday and didnt let her noe till monday, where the boarding time is at 7.30pm.

Told her it was my summon ticket when i passed the boarding tickets that i printed out.
Always like to see her expression when i give her surprises. It makes me happy too.

Anyway...after her driving lesson at abt 6+ , went to pick her up b4 we proceed to the destination. Luckily we were able to make it on time..reached there at about 7.20pm.
Oh Ya! Actually..i have a little phobia of heights, but...ha for her..i gathered all my courage to company her and stepped into the huge and spacious "container". Ha i must say i really dun like the experience. okie i hate heights. sianz. while she was enjoying herself! but im really glad that she did. Yes! she's the opposite of me, she loves all the thrills of those rides such as roller coaster,bungee jumping etc. At times, that makes me feel so

After 30mins, the ride was over! ha and we proceed to meet up wif the peeps, Hai,Gerri,Zh,Steph and Nei for dinner at Wisma! And that stupid yl whu didnt wanna join us becoz he said he haf a paper on thurs. But we all agreed that its' becoz of the 11pm match between Chelsea and Newcastle where the former must get all 3points in order to keep up with the Best Team around the world now. Red Devils!

As usual, after dinner..we rambled around without any things to do in mind. After "opening numbers", baby was the chosen one, to pick an activity to do. Between bowling and Mahjonging, the boy whu had to leave for USA for 3weeks on tuesday chose mj. So off we proceeded to Zh's place while Gerri left for home as she had work the next morning.
That night, me hai and nei gave zh a farewell gift..by letting him Yi Jia Ying San Jia through his stupid LAST LAST LAST game's Man Tai Self-touch. haha. well. still okie.lost 2bucks. =P

okie..logging off, going to Vivocity to meet up with Baby~

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6more days to departure.

issit 6? coz i dun seemz to be able to count as the days goes by...
sigh...will it be a sleepless night on saturday? i dunno.

organising a match fer the refugees on sunday..when the ref told me it was 11am game..i told him no..coz i was thinking that u will be around ..but after a second thought..u will be gone by then.

and so many frens are overseas,busy wif examz, busy wif work.
wad shld i do..when the starting date of work is sept1st.
even though i always wish its that late, but now. . . i really wish that i can start work on the day u leave..

Drops of tears.

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i dunno y. u got me speechless,motionless. nth seemz to be right
i beckon someone/something to make it right. my life.


letting my thoughts wander about when i dunno wad to pen down.

♥

Back! yup back from the Genting Highlands. Went there wif baby! on monday morning at about 7am..hm..let me recall..
















Well alright...a long enuff post. Brighten up this blog wif a few pics!

The view from our hotel room

Its really cloudy, not misty mind u.

My love! =)

Classic! that's a Kbox juke box room!!

Baby in da Lao Ye Che!

Myself!

♥

Reon

if my heart has grown cold there your love will unfold as you open my eyes to the work of your hand my heart will find praise and i will delight in your way in my life your will be done


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