Monday, September 28, 2009 @7:49 PM
i need someone to talk to...someone to share my thoughts.
Why is this nightmare recurring yet again. Spare me the torment. For i am really breaking down.
-crossroad-
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@2:23 AM
I've been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something i could believe in
And looking for that magic rainbow
On the horizon, I couldn't see it.
Awkward meetup, awkward silence. It's perhaps an awful decison of mine right from the start.
I aint nobody's mr right kinda guy. I feel like im the success of all un-accomplishments.
What right do i have.
I yearn for a simple mind, a simple life
-Chapter's closed-
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Saturday, September 26, 2009 @7:05 PM
dunno who are u guys that are tracking my blog now. for its been dead for really long.
It's been a really week..which i wished i would never have to go thru.
Im really affected. yes i am.
I never expect someone to be able to change. that easily. that drastically.
I guess its over. so don't ask.
-kept myself busy as and when i can, thru e dreams i thought i'll find tranquility, yet. nightmares haunt me for me to yet face reality again-
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009 @1:13 PM
feel like my life is in a total mess ..or perhaps it had always been but yet to realised.
I need a way out. be it something to lead, or someone to.
Its crazy to not know what you are thinking ..feeling.
-pls lead a way-
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Saturday, September 19, 2009 @4:33 AM
its 4.33am. yet i cant fall aslp. planned the surprise party for crystal. n im glad she's surprised. and likes the gifts that i chose on behalf of da peeps. love hanging out with this bunch of fun loving ppl. hope she had a great night out with us(haha although i hate e part where all e others have to wait for vickie and her to reach my place..and i seems to be a bad planner where everyone didnt have much to do...apart from just waiting)
She's here. she's gone.
-Without feelings would be good for now. if only-
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Thursday, September 17, 2009 @9:22 PM
I'm really tired. physically tired. mentally tired. im breaking into pieces.
Do i always have to be the one to be giving. Can this innate liability just go.
Seriously. I cant take it anymore.
-Do not let someone become a priority in your life, when u are just an option in theirs-
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Saturday, September 12, 2009 @3:39 AM
just back from the usual friday dinner and bowling game.
It may just seems to be a normal day. a normal game. but i just cant help it.
It came to me. totally tearing me apart. I wished u will know. or even just perhaps take the minimum effort to actually..really ponder abt my feelings. do u. i seriously don't think so.
Its just all abt the impossibilities. the brain over heart. the feelings of all that i would not want it to be. I've tried. have i not? I've tried. but does it really mean a thing ..if it did. it wouldnt be like this.
I wished to be able to talk to someone. to share my deepest inner thoughts. i wished i could.
-Just with this blog. i wished i could sleep myself off like how it is ended up as a shadowed link-
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Monday, September 7, 2009 @12:44 AM
Kicked off the sunday with a disappointment at 7am when yet again the match was called off. till 9am with the call from bu, there was hope, and i started to dial n call up the refugees for some last minute actions. Despite the weather, we had a game. n i really appreciated the 11musketeers who braved the rain and came down. especially those who stays really far away from the pitch. yup. thanks guys. And it was a thumping 7-0 victory. great.Assisted 2(vickie) and scored 2. could easily make it 3...if i chose not to pass it. oh well.its a great game , great team victory.
Spent the later part of the day with a few peeps, and yes. her. Its wad that makes me believe in..its not wad u do.its the person(ppl) u spend ure time with that's really making one to be in a buoyant mood. be it ure an emo kid. < not self declared though.
Spent another 37bucks at the arcade. ha i guess this is the biggest amt of cold card cash i have ever spent at the arcade my entire life. including the previous 2 times.! but well! it was well worth it! the smile on ure face, n the bubbly u .really affected me as well? its great. yup.
Though, getting home...its not the news i wanna end my day off with. not at all.
They don't deserve this. not this kind of ending. Why.
Does it have to be this. for them.? for us.?
-i really don't get it, if only there's an answer to all questions-
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Friday, September 4, 2009 @4:07 PM
a Gift to be kept! till when? no idea.
-never revolve ure life around someone and let him/her be the focus of your life-
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Tuesday, September 1, 2009 @9:12 PM
Shortest meet up ever! hm...54mins or so. =\
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