Friday, January 29, 2010 @5:40 PM
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己
突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品
我们那麽甜那麽美
那麽相信那麽疯
那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去
突然好想你
你会在哪里过的快乐
或委屈突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆突然模糊的眼睛
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
-最怕此生已经决定自己过没有你却又突然听到你的消息-
♥
Friday, January 22, 2010 @1:46 PM
just strucked me. its been 224.
for the past 5years, its always pleasant to be celebrating it with the special one. be it with the peeps or without.
in a blink of an eye. 5years passed by, 224 has too.
-so not looking forward to it this year-
♥
Saturday, January 16, 2010 @1:28 PM
my first experience drinking . n getting drunk. to the extent that i don't rem how i got home. my friend who came back and said hi. did i even manage to walk after? i don't recall !
damn.
this is bad. and the hangover now is killing me..
head spinning.
think it was really the heaviest dosage of liquor i took in my entire life.
totally.
-never ever a second time-
♥
Monday, January 11, 2010 @2:23 PM
i've no idea what is this life about for now..but certainly, deep within, there's still an emotion inside me, misses,missed,missing.
I wished it was like what he said, 6mths is all that you need. it's beyond that period.
Perhaps i feel lost. right now. and that emotion is building all over me.
I'm missing you.
i miss having that someone right by my side.
i miss having that someone complaining abt my passion for soccer n going down for every sun matches.
i miss having that someone asking me to bring baobao along whenever heading out.
i miss having that someone to play mj with, together with my mum, the laughter we share.
i miss having that someone to send back all e way back be it in the middle of the night.
i miss having that someone to buy me each and every jay chou's album whenever it's released.
i miss having that someone to listen to her and sing the jay chou's album and putting one song on a repeat mode for the whole journey back home.
i miss having that someone to attend all our peeps gathering together.
i miss having that someone to look at the cute little way she throws the bowling ball.
i miss having that someone to wait for while she attends to her customers.
i miss having that someone complaining abt me eating durian and says that it stinks and not to open my mouth.
i miss having that someone who was willing to come all the way down to the city area just to meet me for lunch.
i miss having that someone with me for all my overseas trip.
i miss having that someone packing my luggage for me whenever we head overseas.
i miss having that someone to give her surprises and that expression thereafter on her face that means everything would be worth doing.
yet now, i have missed the chance to spend the rest of my life with that special someone.
-life is all about cherishing what you have, before you lose it. It's all over-
♥
Wednesday, January 6, 2010 @4:47 PM
I need $$$ , i need to make more money! i need to get started!
Procrastinate no more.
-better new year resolutions to come-
♥
Monday, January 4, 2010 @2:08 PM
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'm going to do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight, spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace'
Cause I am hanging on every word you say and
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me'
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing, is where I want to be, yeah
Where I want to be
I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify the voices in my head,
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel alive
And break these calluses off of me, one more time'
Cause I am hanging on every word you say and
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me'
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside your door
And listen to you breathing, is where I want to be, yeah
I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for the scraps
To fall off your table to the ground'Cause I just want to be here now'
Cause I am hanging on every word you say and
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me'
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing, is where I want to be, yeah'
Cause I am hanging on every word you say and
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me'
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing, is where I want to be, yeah
Where I want to be
Where I want to be
♥
@1:24 PM
there has been many breakups in the year 2009. it is a bad year for r/s. at least for the loved ones around me...i've seen many breakups..many. mine inclusive.
It had been a longlong 5 years for me and her..at least to me. it was long enough...for me to even have the idea of settling down, hoping to build with her the world's bestest family ..
Many have said " long r/s wouldnt last till marriage, it's the one that u get together with during the age when ppl are ready to get married, that's the one u will marry with"
I always beg to differ..but now the reality is making me witnessing the harsh facts by the evolution of mankind's view of a r/s. Not that i am divine. The past p/s has also proved me wrong..so wrong. It shattered me..deep within, to now..i identify myself as someone who's not capable of giving another one..the kinda bf that the venuz-es would seek to have.
But what kind of bf am i.
I chose to give in whenever there's a quarrel, be it her fault/mine. not immediately, but after awhile, i'll just be the one picking the phone. yes, perhaps this is what others will call weak.
Whatever kind of food she wants to eat, i'll try to accomodate, i'll try to like what she likes.
Whatever model of car she prefers, i would hold back on my own choice and think twice abt it .
I would bid the carplate no. of mine to be our anniversary date.
I would try to make our anniversaries a special one. monthsaries with little surprises as long as i can think of any. It's literally down to nothing much that i can give as a gift.
I would tell her no, its too expensive and shouldnt buy it..when she sees something she loves. and get it for her for our anniversary or any other special occasions.
I would want to make her the 全世界最辛福的人 . . . .by kneeling down and asking for her hand.
-love ought to be sweet, everlasting, not dependent on just when it starts-
♥
Sunday, January 3, 2010 @1:23 AM
had a bbq and im killed.
in great pain while i type this now. i guess some of the food they did was not cooked afterall.
anyone knows what's the cure? i just simply popped a few panadols to ease the pain. but doesnt seems to help.
my brother's back and im now in my own room...it's been 6mths 22days since i on the aircon of my room. step into it. stayed here for more den 30mins. lying on my bed in pain.
i wished u're here. cause i know u'll be here when i needed someone..
-physically aching , yet shattering and deepening the wound further within-
♥
