Tuesday, February 2, 2010 @3:25 PM
i need a light. i need a direction in life.
It's something im currently lacking in my life.
The current me. is not what i want to be. N definetly i see no future in this pathetic soul.
Another week it will be. The first one after 5years.
It's just something im not looking forward to. Be it because of the fact that when ppl gets older, they tend to not celebrate it anymore, or be it the fact that it's gonna be the first one since a long time that i'll be "celebrating" this alone.
Thinking back, she made me felt like a movie star when my pictures appeared on the large plasma screen at the building of hmv, orchard. It's something that i rather she not waste her money doing it, but it was something that really touched me. the efforts she put in. it made me feel so special. But it's all torn apart. 120709.
As what i said before, the surprise. got surprised.
It's how it ended. Till now, it's kept that way.
-emotions are not sought for, it comes from within. Sometimes, it's better off being a heartless one.-
♥
